Baby

You’ll never be prepared to be a mother.

The piece of advice that I wish that I would’ve received would be that as prepared as you think you are you’re never ready to become a mother. The feeling is indescribable when you meet your new baby. No moment has prepared you for the flood of emotions about to take over your body. It’s completely normal to cry when you look at them you’re not crazy. I checked. Not just right after they are born. I would just watch her sleep and be so happy that I would cry. I constantly had an irrational fear of something, anything happening to my baby. It was my own fault for googling every thing that possibly could go wrong.I shouldn’t have filled my head with so much negative information. Although being informed is good I was just freaking myself out. I wouldn’t sleep or eat. I’d just stare at her and it was really quiet in our house all the time which was bad because then she was a light sleeper. My fault. My daughter had completely consumed me in the best way possible. I had new mom anxiety like crazy! I had to tell myself to take a step back and realize babies are born into adverse situations and still prevail! My friends all kept telling me how paranoid and overbearing I was being so I finally relaxed. It was the best thing I could have done. I am still super cautious and a slight germaphobe but my mind is a little more at ease. I will learn everyday how to be a better mother and daughter. I am so happy that God has given me the gift of Luna. She is everything I ever needed and more. The most amazing thing is that before I had no idea what I was missing until I met her. There is no preparing for that kind of love. There is no way to describe the indescribable feeling of becoming a mother for the first time. 

 

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